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First, for speed, she launched down, from high in an oak, to the toe of the dam. Then with one stroke of her wings, up and over the dam, then down again to the water and with a strong, final stroke of her wings and the momentum of her launch, she dragged her talons through the school of goldfish (aiming to snag a golden meal), in the sunlit water growing brighter, shimmering. Ms. Owl missed her target. She glided across the pond to a dead branch on the ground near the water’s edge where she landed, with a hopping motion turned herself around so she could look back along her flight path, and settled down to watch the goldfish, shimmering. Ms. Owl was so close Mark’s slightest motion could have spooked her, so he sat very, very still, not-blinking, peering intently at her, also sitting very still. He was blown away by the wild beauty of the owl and—being true to his character—had a lot of questions: What is the story of this owl? Is she of a pair of owls, or is she a single owl, not yet com- mitted to a long-term relationship? Or is her mate deceased? Having read that owls mate for life, these questions both- ered Mark, who dealt with the bother by asking more questions: What does the surviving spouse of an owl marriage do upon the death of a mate? Waste away in sorrow and loneliness? Look for a new mate? Take to heavy drinking? Find a good neighborhood singles bar to fre- quent? Join a church? This was an important matter to Mark, as he was a recent widower, wrenched, by the death of his wife of 25 years, out of a marriage which he’d thought and had hoped would be forev- er. Mark was not easy with the thought, and very uneasy about the acts, of seek- ing a new mate. He was put off by the necessity of being “out there” again. It made him tired and uncomfortable to contemplate the time, energy, and sheer luck which must go into establishing a new life with another woman of close affection and dedication. For instance (he muttered to himself), just how many modern women could he realistically expect to meet who would go with him to an Austin water treatment lagoon— as he strongly enjoyed to do—to stretch out on the ground on their backs to count the shore-birds circling overhead? Really.... He doubted there were many women who could be expected to spend much time sitting with a middle-aged man (himself) on the dam of a small, muddy pond, in a remote area of Central Texas, hoping for the appearance of a shamanistic entity while watching a school of gold fish, shimmering. Going out dancing was not an option: He can- not hold a-woman-not-his-wife close enough to dance with her. Practicing the tango was just simply embarrassing. And it made him feel like he was cheating on his deceased wife. Mark sought guidance in meeting these challenges from all others—men, women, even Owls—who may have gone through this, or be in the same fix, and who might know how to cope. Mark took a moment to refocus his attention. He was out in the open, there at his Small Pond, exposed. He had no cover, neither from a hunting blind nor a camoflage costume. How long, he wondered, could he sit there without moving, before Ms. Owl noticed him? Not so long, as it turned out. Ms. Owl decided to take a look ‘round: swiveling on-line at: cenizojournal.com AYN FOUNDATION (DAS MAXIMUM) her head in that unique, kinda scary way owls have of turning their heads, she looked first to her right, then back to center, toward the oaks, then to her left — and Mark almost burst out in laugh- ter as Ms. Owl did a double-take, seeing him there, in his folding chair, looking back at her. For at least 60 seconds, maybe two minutes, neither of them moved. Mark continued to not-blink. Ms. Owl looked him over. Calmly. He returned her gaze. Calmly. They stared into each other’s eyes like lovers might do. Mark detected no fear or panic in Ms. Owl’s eyes. He saw in her eyes intelligence, curiosity, comprehen- sion, a strong sense of competency, and what appeared to Mark to be a sheepish sense of humor, perhaps a result of Ms. Owl having not spotted him early on. All those personality characteristics Mark might wish to see in a soul-mate’s eyes, he saw in Ms. Owl’s. He was not sure what Ms. Owl saw in his eyes, but whatever it was, she seemed not to be comfortable with it. Or maybe, Mark ruefully admitted, he was just boring her, because as he finally blinked, Ms. Owl flapped her wings, lifted her feet from the dead branch, took purchase in the air and glided unhurriedly back across the pond, over the goldfish, shim- mering. Then up and over the dam of the Small Pond, to disappear into the deep shade of the oak woods. Mark sat there in his folding chair, wishing wist- fully that he too could just fly away. He was overwhelmed by what had happened, of having shared a full minute or more of intelligent communication with a damned owl. He began to under- stand that maybe Ms. Owl’s visit was much like that of a visit by a shamanistic entity to someone lost and in need of spiritual help. Initially Mark struggled against that analysis, but ultimately it would prevail. The only downside to this encounter with Ms. Owl was Mark’s grudging, bothersome conclusion that she may have found him to be boring. Something told him to expect that response in future encounters with owls as well as with humans. Something told him also that this particular shamanistic entity had a sly sense of humor (for which Mark is grateful) and might be around in future to help out. Reflecting on Ms. Great Horned Owl’s visit, Mark had to admit that she was impressive. He wished she had stayed around for a while longer, as he was ready to welcome her to his neighborhood with a friendly “Hello” and a wave of his hand. He might even have given to Ms. Owl—had she stayed around a few more minutes— his contact information, business card, and email address. “We could have scheduled,” he thought aloud, “a lunch date for later in the week, perhaps back here at the Small Pond. We’ve most like- ly had interesting experiences and knowledge we could have shared. But,” he continued, “even though Ms. Owl is gone, I do not feel rejected.” Mark stared off into the middle distance over the pond, thinking of Ms. Great Horned Owl, hoping she had someone to hoot at in the coming night, and contemplating the paucity of telephone numbers in the small black book he had taken to carry- ing. The school of goldfish in the water, shimmering, seemed satisfied that Ms. Owl was gone. D AVIS M OUNTAINS N UT C OMPANY Roasted and Dipped Pecans You can taste the difference care makes! 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