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New Voices Photo by Angela Greenroy The Desk, the journal, the hiker and the view. THE DESK by Angela Greenroy “Isn’t it mystifying up here?” wrote “Mother Nature’s child” as she gazed over the West Texas terrain. “I’m so filled with awe and reverence for this beautiful land. You? O.K, granted people have so many different reasons to come up here: to get away from it all and vent frustrations, to admire, to scoff at life, to rest, to see if there is actually a desk up here. But whatever your rea- son, make it positive.” “U p here” is a rock outcrop- ping atop Hancock Hill, home to a desk. The Desk is not lovely to look at, but the landscape is. A chair awaits the hiker. This sacred place suggests cleaning out the overcrowded crevices of the mind, extracting uplifting meditations and thought-provoking words. Who was “Mother Nature’s child?” She was a repeat visitor to Hancock Hill in the early 90s, but she represents every student, every local resident and every tourist who comes to share their thoughts in the journals of the Desk. Any person in search of the Desk will find footsteps leading the way. It is the route well-traveled. There are several rumors circulating around the Sul Ross campus about the origin of the Desk. Several professors claim the Desk was there when they 20 came to teach during the early 70s. Some believe the Desk has been a fix- ture on top of the hill since the mid- to late-60s. Brian Larremore, a campus police officer and also a past student of Sul Ross, says his brother helped to bring a desk up Hancock Hill in the 70s. But the story found in the Archives of the Big Bend is the one Dr. Kevin Urbanczyk, professor of geology, remembers from the 80s. His classmates and friends, Jim Kitchen and Bill Wagner, were the initiators of this idea and have gone down in the Archives as such. Jim and Bill, along with Travis Miller, carried the Desk up the hill. In the 1999 Sul Ross Brand, Jim told a reporter, “We didn’t have permission, so we took the desk up at night. There wasn’t much of a moon, so we couldn’t see the trail by the Bar SR Bar very well. Bill walked straight into a yucca. Once we reached the top, we set it out on the ridge, away from traffic (hikers).” Urbanczyk has been a regular visitor since that time. Today, he acts as faculty advisor to the Sul Ross Hill Club, keep- ing the tradition of the Desk and the journals alive for future generations. Urbanczyk explains his motives for doing so: “I’m selfish. I like to go up Cenizo First Quarter 2012 there myself.” Urbanczyk states, speaking of Jim and Bill, “The Desk was just an exten- sion of their personas.” Both were rest- less when inside, and they sought a place to go when life in the dorms was too chaotic. Jim Kitchen was a resident assis- tant at the time, which enabled him to get his hands on stray pieces of furniture. The Desk became a study nook for many a student seeking solitude. And this is how the journals began. Referring once again to the article in the 1999 SRSU Brand, we know that Jim Kitchen left a notebook in the desk that he planned to use during his next study period alone on the hill. He returned to find someone had written in it, and he wrote back. A friend quotes him as saying, “It was just an acci- dent. After that, I decided to leave it in (the desk) and see the response.” This led to a random conversation that has spanned at least 20 years. The Desk is more than a university tradition; it’s a continuation of the char- acter of the Big Bend Country. It’s a physical object that embodies the people here. It’s the desire for reclusiveness – entwined with the longing to connect. It’s the spirit of academia that is promi- nent throughout West Texas. It’s the legacy of Sul Ross State University as seen in the journals that date back 20 years. It’s the history of Hancock Hill. Unfortunately, there are many lapses between journals due to wind and rain, rodents eating away the pages and people who could think of nothing to do except destroy. Some of the journals are missing; others are incomplete. Pages have been lost, yet, despite the difficulties, the tradi- tion remains, and it transcends the imme- diate area of West Texas. We can never recover pages from the past, but the present and the future are ours for history making. The Desk is an open door, calling out, “Come and get away from it all.” The voices in the jour- nal surround each visitor like a great cloud of witnesses, testifying to heritage and extending an invitation to join the choir. Journal Entries from the Desk July 29, 1992: “Certainly I am a newcomer to this Peak O’Fun – not an S.R. Student, not even a townie, just an extended visitor. I’m grateful then for the introduction to perhaps one of Alpine’s less- er known spots of true peacefulness. Love – CPR” Oct. 11, 1999: “It has been over 12 years now since I came up this hill and wasn’t sure I could make it but am ecstatic that I accomplished it. Instead of com- plaining, I am grateful that I could make it and that the NOTEBOOK TRADI- TION is STILL ALIVE. Love to all, Bob Kim” Sept. 28, 2002: “The old journal is gone which saddens me!! I look forward to reading what I last wrote and compare it to my life now… I hope to go to the archives in a few years and be able to recall my youth in just a few entries. This place captures the whole of you. – KRAZY” 2002 – No date and written on a divider: “Shine like a star like the brightness of heaven. Show others you’re light and don’t be afraid. Stand tall and bold, don’t give up. Live up. – Joanna.” Nov. 27, 2009: “I haven’t hiked up here in almost 50 years – used to do it daily since this was our special playground while our parents were going to school. Oh the memories!! Thank you for the desk still being here for all. – Bettie McCauley, Silver City, NM” March 2010, unsigned: “It’s NOT ALWAYS this windy and the grass isn’t always golden brown – so keep coming back to the desk, the view, the book of thoughts.” July 4, 2011: “Texans are crazy! But your landscape is beautiful. – California” 2011, date unknown: “Life brings you surprises every day and most of them are hidden, but if you stop and take in your sur- roundings and absorb the view, God will surprise you with what you can do. Sincerely, Alex, Lauren, and Sharon.”