Cenizo Journal Summer 2020 | Page 23

CREDIBILITY CRISIS Steering through parched desert lands of pointed poisonous cactus and creatures I drive five hundred miles to save my life. Transporting my life-long weakness, headaches, and muscle pain to White Eagle, Shoshone shaman renowned healer of all ailments I seek solace. As I approach his melting adobe hut I notice a breeze snapping white piece of notebook paper bobby pinned to his torn door screen. Gone to the doctor. Be back at one. BACK TO MY ROOTS In certain times and situations I have written a poem and in retrospect it was my momentary scripture—my GPS to organized thought and verbal expression of a belief, an idea, an observation, or a sarcasm. Speaking of sarcasm, I never openly ridicule, but I can be so tongue in cheek that the side of my mouth is sore all the time, and for days due to tongue spasms I can only mumble incoherently. WILSON’S OBSERVATORY Ten thousand years ago a Clovis man may have stood on this very earth site at this very moment of night to view Your awesome, definitive, consistent, dynamic, stellar performance. Perhaps a nomadic hunter five thousand years ago, a squaw and papoose four thousand years later, a buffalo soldier in the 1870s, and a mountain biker last night. But the variable has always been mankind never Your show, and that brings a magnificent peace to this old ex-country boy back in God’s country tonight turning and looking turning and looking turning and looking. (From the courtyard of the Veranda Bed and Breakfast Ft. Davis, Texas one morning about 4 a.m.) Or maybe no one has viewed this performance from this site at this time of night ever before. Cenizo Summer 2020 23