Cenizo Journal Fall 2011 | Page 22

Poetry Apology My old man steps over to this worn-out Datsun pickup I’m working on, leans an arm onto the windshield, says: It was how Dad done us: He was tough. I look up. The old man’s a battler. Scarred bald head, result of an fuel tank fire; blind in one eye, crippled by arthritis; high blood pressure flush. A battler struggling to hang on. He continues: He used to be real hard on us, call you every name in the book, make fun of you, make you feel like you was stupid, not worth anything. So I never learned how to teach you boys the right way. I couldn’t – He shakes his head, steps away. On the glass: oil smudge where his hand died. W.K. Stratton Now Thinking Like a Mountain, I Sense there’s a storm somewhere. The air reeks of ozone and the mountains vibrate as if they’re at war with the invading clouds. Enough to scatter the wall-and-stone critters as well as the winter-preparing ants who’ve hurried their dry seeds across the patio since dawn. Only an old praying mantis remains hanging onto the window screen, twisting one broken antenae, like a B-movie alien who’s hoping to pick up a rescuing signal, before he makes his next move. The incoming raindrops explode, shattering the ant trail while the mantis shakes then inches under a honeysuckle. The storm subsides; the desert mountain quiets. Later I go out into the night sky filled with stars I haven’t seen since childhood when they competed only with fireflies before they began to die from too much light. George Bristol 22 Cenizo Fourth Quarter 2011